Wednesday, August 22, 2012


I have been away tooooo long! My work computer wasn't allowing me to blog there for a while. But I finally got around that by downloading Firefox and now here I am.

I have a lot going on in my life right now. I am still working out hard, riding my bike to work at least 3 times a week and going to derby practice (we made it to regional tournaments btw). I have been doing pushups and working to be able to complete 50 pushups at one time. I have maintained my goal weight since May.

Anywho...moving on to the point.

I have been annoyed by some posts I have been reading lately on social networks. You know those posts that say "FML" or "this is the worst day of my life" or "my life sucks" and "I might as well die" crap? Are you ALIVE? Are your kids alive? Do you have food to eat? Do you have family? If the answer is yes then shut the F up!!! I want to shout this to people who post woe-is-me Debbie-downer statuses.

I had the worst day of my life on February 3rd, 2012 (and I am pretty sure it is worse than the average worst). I had many bad days after that. I still have them. But my kids and my husband are alive and we are all getting back up, dusting ourselves off, and learning to live life to the fullest. Bad life situations hopefully bring about necessary change. Life is not meant to keep you down when you get knocked there. Tough situations bring us even closer to those we love and closer to strangers we may never have met otherwise. Life experiences build our empathy. Mine has grown tons these last months.

I can see the ripples that were made over the last 16 years of my family life. When you see that, your eyes are open WIDE. It is very enlightening, and very humbling. It hurts very deep and I will never forget. Things that I thought were, just weren't after that horrible February day. And they still aren't and probably never will be again. Even though that day was horrible I am thankful for knowing the truth and what that truth has taught me. I am thankful for the people in my life who have supported me in this difficult time.

The most important thing I have learned in this life experience is to LOVE, really love. Don't try to fix people. You can only fix yourself (and if you need fixing, recognize it and do the work). Don't judge ANYONE. Don't think you know it all because you probably know the least. Talk to people. Get to know them. Help people, don't hurt them. Build your children up, don't tear them down, even if you're just teasing or being a perfectionist who has to fix everything. Everyone needs love, no matter who they are or what they have done. And they need someone to believe in them. Love can change the world. It has certainly changed me.